I see a red door & I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
I see a line of cars and they're all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a new born baby it just happens every day
I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it has been painted black
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
Its not easy facing up when your whole world is black
No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the setting sun
My love will laugh with me before the morning comes
I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

The Rolling Stones. the right track for the right mood. i have successfully made the grandparents pissed with me because i never showed up in the morning. i said i would but i didn't. basket case. i was in bed instead, nursing a massive headache that didn't go away till after 3pm. but of course the grand dad didn't want to hear any of it. he just hung up on me when i called. another small treachery to add to the mountain of other treacheries i have accumulated thus far. wonderful.

Hmm, hmm, hmm...
I wanna see it painted, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun blotted out from the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black
Yeah!

the patriarch is not going to be pleased when he hears about this. after he got me my black machine... which has an airplane crashed into a wall. i wonder if i'm not subconsciously morbid on purpose. in one day, i got people pissed without having to get out of bed. amazing... doesn't make one feel good when one cannot meet the demands of loved ones. hmm, hmm, hmm...