if you want everything you want there's always something you got to give up -bone thugs n harmony.

i love the independent too much. from radios to bands to music videos. suffer my desire, y'know. yesterday, i found out feri is still in school because i ask Lurp and she told me to describe how the dude looks like. long hair, Indonesian looking and kental in a mat rock way. ahahahaha. i've always favoured the losers who don't know they're hot than those who think they're studs. i used to dream about feri wearing a wifebeater, strumming on an acoustic and singing me to sleep. very Black Keys. Lurp was saying she will never go for my kinda boys. i had to agree. they won't be able to indulge in her every whim. and whims are what Lurp is so famous for. forgive me, love BUT IT'S TRUE. i complain, she whines. my shoulders ache. let's just hope Lurp runs into feri soon. the one with the romantic rights is making me rimas even when he's not around. i used to think i'll get better at it as i get older but i still feel and react the same way. chicken shit and paranoid as always. i wanna be well. haha.