i've got a new game. it's called Where's Aliah. it follows in the tradition of Where's Wally. you're right, i'm just being crappy. i dreamt of the smashing pumpkins last night. dreamt about watching them play, actually. the setting was an old uni campus. much like the old st andrew's school, complete with a dreary courtyard and a bell tower. they were supposed to be playing in a small dilapidated AVA room. i didn't know they were going to be there. i was looking for a classroom and i couldn't find anyone to ask directions from. i was about to walk up this flight of stairs when a girl popped out of nowhere, screaming her head off at me, telling me i didn't want to go up there because it was off-limits to everyone. i listened to her because i didn't want to go up there either. beyond the stairs was a very dark place -rafters and bird poo, probably. then some dude walked by and just casually mentioned that there was going to be a show in the AVA room. i just followed him. small crowd but there they all were sitting on stools and looking comfy in worn sweaters. d'arcy, billy, james and jimmy. i. wept. everyone else seemed indifferent to them. how unfortunate. i think it's got something to do with that girl i came across. she's got one of my favourite lines from a pumpkins song. suffer my desire.